I'm me.

I'm just me. I won't apologize for that. I try my best. My efforts are my gems. And I won't let anyone tell me my efforts aren't good enough. In the end it's the thought that counts. My old student creed comes to mind:

I AM SOMEBODY

I am responsible for my behavior, the results of my behavior and what I become in life.
Life does not accept excuses. I won't give any.
I will not let my need to be accepted by the gang keep me from doing what is right.
I AM SOMEBODY!
I am unique. There never has been and never will be another person like me.
I don't have to pretend to be something that I am not.
I AM SOMEBODY!
Losers let it happen - winners make it happen.
Therefore, when faced with a mountain, I will not quit!!

I will keep on striving until I climb over, find a pass through,
tunnel underneath, or simply stay and turn the mountain into a gold mine!
I will do my best! I know I can!
I AM SOMEBODY!!!

Diary entry 05/31/16 7:40a

"Subconscious - In psychology, the subconscious is the part of consciousness that is not currently in focal awareness."

Something I've been thinking about lately, is subconscious good or just plain ol evil. For the past couple of years I have been desperately researching about "The Secret " to getting your hearts desires, but for me it feels like it has only set me back. My true hearts desire is to be happy and wealthy, my children happy and we'll off, stability, but as soon as I think I'm getting somewhere I get knocked back down. I'm consistently at Rock bottom but I work so hard. I'm thankful for all that I have. But I seek elevation. To be taken seriously.

Things I need to find out :

How to let go of baggage