I'm officially an entrepreneur.

1/16/2018

So today is a day I will hold dearly in my heart. Besides the birth of my children, I have never been more happy and joyful. After years of being distracted, I am now focused more than ever. I am now the owner/muva of a start up. I knew the day (one of many 🙌) would come and now it's here. My very own store. My store. Mine. I'm officially building my empire and no one can stop me. It feels so good to say this because no one can take it away from me.

I didn't think I could be any more determined by looking at my situation of having my kids in an unstable home and barely being able to put food on the table, but just hours after opening my store, my 12 year old daughter gave me the ultimate finishing move kick in the pants. As we were leaving I asked if my children if they had everything. She then goes frantically to grab her skull cap and says, "I can't go no where without this." It broke me and yet added more fuel to my drive. I live for the day my kids can go without a bad hair day. Sending my daughter and sons to a black owned salon/barber to get their hair laid is one of the many things I'm looking forward to.

But the easy part is over. I've been setting goals like a maniac. I don't care how crazy I look. I know what I want and I will get it. And starting a non profit for homeless mothers will be my ultimate goal unless the Lord says otherwise. I give God all the praise for where my journey is going. He isn't playing any games fore it's reaping season now. All those tears and storms were only to grow and manifest. When I thought God forgot me, he had me all along. I'm still in disbelief that he put me in this position. It's scary but I do not fear.

I will own my new title as being an entrepreneur, a child of God and hold my crown high on my head. Putting others in this position is where I am going to get to eventually. This is only the beginning

Total set up costs: $50 (site)+ $29(plan)= $79
Current bank balance: $14.37

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Redo

So thank the good Lord above because I come so far from where I was. My journey is just beginning and I have a very long way to go. First of all, looking at my old posts, I was so hard on myself a few years back. I was in a dark place, had little to no hope or faith. But thank God 4 what Hope and Faith remained because being the faithful God he is, i asked him to lighten my path and he has.

On March 15th 2016 I took a step in faith and started my very first business venture. Well it may have been my second venture. A few years back in 2009 I decided to join a company and sell kitchen cutlery for Cutco inc. It was very interesting, i made my own schedule. I kept at it for about a month until something better came along. But I got one foot in the door of marketing. Anyways back to what I was talking about before, I started a business venture about a year ago with FES. At the time I have been working at Diamond destinations selling vacation packages since November 2015. Once they didn't pay me the day before Christmas, I never came back to work until January 2016. I would sell vacation packages, but not enough to pay rent or do anything extra than pay for a little bit of food here and there and diapers for my baby. I barely had enough to pay the babysitter or to even get to work. But I did my research about the company for about a month and then took some of my tax refund money and invested $287 into myself into the credit repair business. I feel in my heart that was honestly the best decision I have made in the past 11 years. No job application or job offers compare to the excitement of what I did that day in March 2015.

My first month of being entrepreneur  comma posted on Craigslist my little add even paying for some. The fish were biting but I caught none of them. I even went as far as buying ads on Instagram I'm a page with a high follower count. Once again the fish were biting but I were able to catch any. I thought that I'll go ahead and pay the first month and then eventually I'll get people to sign up and then the service will eventually pay for it so I'll start making Bank and life will be good. A few months later, I even started passing out my business cards locally, got Flyers printed out, booklets made and passed them to car dealerships but once again nothing happened. Some wondered why did I hold on to this and not just let it go. I just can't explain it I feel like this is calling.

I never paid for the service after the first month, but the fire still burned in me to nurture my business that I started. I would talk about it here and there to people who inquired to know more about what I do, and it felt good just to speak of myself as an entrepreneur. That I didn't work for anyone. But best of all, the service that I had to offer would help people get in a better place in their life.

I write this all to say, today is February 24th 2017 and I'm going to hit the redo button and try this again. I'm very excited. I've sharpened my strategy. But I'm going to get even better by going to the secrets of success conference and really get on top of my game. And you better believe I'm ready to get it. I can't wait to tell you all about it. Because in the words of Meek Mill, if I don't grind, I don't shine. And if I don't shine, then I don't eat. And if I don't eat, then I'm gonna to starve. And if I'm gonna to starve then I will pull Heat on all y'all b**** ass negroes and all y'all rich as negroes. As if I don't make no money, I'm going to take your money.  I'm just waiting on my moment.

Things that all kids should know

Growing up I remember being told in the 3rd grade that i would be in sld (slow learning disabilities) class for a few hours out the week but not full time. I never felt slow or that i couldn't do anything that the the other kids were doing. I just wasn't that interested. My mind wandered a lot about many things. Real things, make believe, my imagination would run WILD on the daily. Which made new realise everybody learns different. I hear people talking a lot about different learning types. But I think there are two different learning types. I feel like people are all cut from all kinds of different cloth and what may work for some may not work for the next but I feel like there are two different learning types. And the first learning type is that the story about how an eagle mom teaching her child how to fly. The momma will push her baby out the nest and let her baby fall till she's about to crash into the ground, she then saves her baby and then they practice over and over and over and over and over and over until the bird gets the gist and the idea of how to work their wings. Then you have this other way which there's a saying that goes you can bring the donkey to the water but you can't make it drink. And what I take on this thing is that you can teach somebody whatever but you can make them use those things that you talk to it kind of reminds me of the saying if you give a man a fish then that's good but if you teach a man how to fish he will be set for life. So that's how I feel about learning processes . I feel like some people you can tell them hey this is what you have to do and then boom  they can practice and practice and practice it and then get it on their own eventually  no the other learning type you have to continually be there got them Mentor them and make sure that they understand it  because they're more Hands-On . I feel like my learning type out of those two would be to teach me how to fish because all throughout my life I feel like when it came to learning stuff yeah the teacher to me but the only way I really learned is if it was more on a personal level and not to a whole class. So I wish that I had a mentor and I think that's what I want to be is a mentor to children to help them if they're struggling in school to see what it is that they can find a way so that they can accomplish their goals if they want to get their grades up and stuff like that. Kids should know that just because somebody wants something bigger than them does not mean that they're not as smart and they just learn differently just like I did. so I'm just talking right now. But these are things that I want to look back on in the future. Just my thoughts.....

End goal

So I'm sitting here watching Tai Lopez 8 ways not to waste time and procrastinate. And one of those things he says is that number 8 is that people have no fixed goal and that they have no end goal. So that made me think what is my end goal? And being with all of this stuff that's been going on latley, its swaying me to feel like I think that I don't know exactly what my in goal is, but I do want to say it has something to do with children because at the end of the day they're our future. So it's going to have to do something with that. Some type of child advocate or... have some type of program where it's for children to be who they want to be. And learn how to set goals for themselves to become who they want to become. And the crazy part about that is growing up I would always say I would never work with children like in a daycare, and I always said I don't like other kids that are not my kids or are not related to me but now sitting here on this good Thursday on January 12th 2017 at 3:03 p.m. I just had a change of heart. And I feel like God works in mysterious ways and I feel like that's what he's calling me to do to be successful in my life is to help others be successful in their and give them the tools for adult life. Wow that's amazing. Yes Lord keep speaking to me!

Teal hair

At work on my break but like a writing a blog entry. I plan to look back on these posts one day in compared to my life to see what I created. These days I've been trying my hardest to get closer to God and it feels like I can't get close enough. But God is so amazing I know that he is around me at all times and have his angels around me watching over me. I can't be more thankful for such an amazing God. His love is so deep for me and my family and everyone on Earth, I pray I remember this whenever I'm feeling down that he is a faithful God. With him all things are possible, and one day I will be the greatest in the credit game, in the real estate game, in the entrepreneur game, in the mother game, in the daughter game, in the friend game, the love game, the Jesus game, and teal hair games.

6.17.16

Hi I know my title says June 17th and it's now June 18 but that's okay. This journal entry is about June 17 2016. Today I had an great day. Im thankful that God woke me up to have a another chance. I finally finished watching how to recruit 20 people in 30 Days by Eric worre. I must admit that it was a pretty good webinar. It took me about 2 hours and a half to finish watching this one hour video because of my energetic 1 year old. But none of the less I learned a lot. And I'm very excited for the future now that I have this plan up my sleeve for my credit repair business.

I'm also happy because I did 2 loads of laundry. Tomorrow I'm going to finish the final load. I'm also happy, that I'm finally writing in my journal and letting you know my day and document this journey. I want to start riding more often so that I can keep up with what I'm doing everyday.

So let me go ahead and talk about my week. My week first started off with Mike stealing my sister's brand new never been used before bicycle, that she has one in a ticket raffle in November on Thanksgiving Day. I had no idea that he would do this but I'm glad that I got to cut him off. It's pretty crazy that he decided to burn a bridge with me so quickly even though I had motivated him to go get the job that very day. We got into a big argument. And he talked very badly about me Tristan. But I'm okay with that, because I look at it like this... One day he's going to ask me if I'm hiring! LOL! Even his girlfriend got in on it because he wouldn't stop writing me and texting me stupid shit, so I sent her a text message and I guess he still wants to be with him but that's not my problem anymore now is it? LOL. She even as low as trying to diss my new business venture and that I'm not making any money but at least I'm making moves is how I see it. And I'm not trying to raise or take care of a grown man but I will probably grow and raise my business. Checkmate!

But enough about them. Today we're going to go to a resort with my sister is holding Messiah birthday staycation in Kissimmee. They're all supposed to be going swimming and I hear that there is a water park on the property so that should be fun and interesting and all the kids. We had to stay back because comma I had to wash clothes. Butt we will see them tomorrow and hopefully there's cake involved. LOL! Anywho comma yesterday I did his hair for him. I braided it really nice. He is the biggest pain in the butt when he's getting his hair done. But I love him and I love it. His hair turned out so nice. I found a picture on Instagram and did a remake of it and it turned out extremely phenomenal. I'm so proud of myself!

What star just been hanging out with my Madre my son at my sister's house and now we're getting ready for bed. Well Tristin is already asleep now it is my turn. Goodnight.

But God

One thing about me i never blame anyone for my problems. Even this year of getting stabbed in the back left to right, helping people out when I barely got it to give, but I learned from it. I take full responsibility of where my life sways and goes. if you say you're going to help, i expect you to do it whole heartedly. While betrayal has been evident in my life as of late, I refuse to be bitter! Everything happens for a reason and when it's all said and done I literally don't need a hand clap from noone. God's Will be done, and I won't stop doing what I can for others. Always grateful and humble,  I'll pat my own self on the back and keep pushing.