6.17.16

Hi I know my title says June 17th and it's now June 18 but that's okay. This journal entry is about June 17 2016. Today I had an great day. Im thankful that God woke me up to have a another chance. I finally finished watching how to recruit 20 people in 30 Days by Eric worre. I must admit that it was a pretty good webinar. It took me about 2 hours and a half to finish watching this one hour video because of my energetic 1 year old. But none of the less I learned a lot. And I'm very excited for the future now that I have this plan up my sleeve for my credit repair business.

I'm also happy because I did 2 loads of laundry. Tomorrow I'm going to finish the final load. I'm also happy, that I'm finally writing in my journal and letting you know my day and document this journey. I want to start riding more often so that I can keep up with what I'm doing everyday.

So let me go ahead and talk about my week. My week first started off with Mike stealing my sister's brand new never been used before bicycle, that she has one in a ticket raffle in November on Thanksgiving Day. I had no idea that he would do this but I'm glad that I got to cut him off. It's pretty crazy that he decided to burn a bridge with me so quickly even though I had motivated him to go get the job that very day. We got into a big argument. And he talked very badly about me Tristan. But I'm okay with that, because I look at it like this... One day he's going to ask me if I'm hiring! LOL! Even his girlfriend got in on it because he wouldn't stop writing me and texting me stupid shit, so I sent her a text message and I guess he still wants to be with him but that's not my problem anymore now is it? LOL. She even as low as trying to diss my new business venture and that I'm not making any money but at least I'm making moves is how I see it. And I'm not trying to raise or take care of a grown man but I will probably grow and raise my business. Checkmate!

But enough about them. Today we're going to go to a resort with my sister is holding Messiah birthday staycation in Kissimmee. They're all supposed to be going swimming and I hear that there is a water park on the property so that should be fun and interesting and all the kids. We had to stay back because comma I had to wash clothes. Butt we will see them tomorrow and hopefully there's cake involved. LOL! Anywho comma yesterday I did his hair for him. I braided it really nice. He is the biggest pain in the butt when he's getting his hair done. But I love him and I love it. His hair turned out so nice. I found a picture on Instagram and did a remake of it and it turned out extremely phenomenal. I'm so proud of myself!

What star just been hanging out with my Madre my son at my sister's house and now we're getting ready for bed. Well Tristin is already asleep now it is my turn. Goodnight.

But God

One thing about me i never blame anyone for my problems. Even this year of getting stabbed in the back left to right, helping people out when I barely got it to give, but I learned from it. I take full responsibility of where my life sways and goes. if you say you're going to help, i expect you to do it whole heartedly. While betrayal has been evident in my life as of late, I refuse to be bitter! Everything happens for a reason and when it's all said and done I literally don't need a hand clap from noone. God's Will be done, and I won't stop doing what I can for others. Always grateful and humble,  I'll pat my own self on the back and keep pushing.

I'm me.

I'm just me. I won't apologize for that. I try my best. My efforts are my gems. And I won't let anyone tell me my efforts aren't good enough. In the end it's the thought that counts. My old student creed comes to mind:

I AM SOMEBODY

I am responsible for my behavior, the results of my behavior and what I become in life.
Life does not accept excuses. I won't give any.
I will not let my need to be accepted by the gang keep me from doing what is right.
I AM SOMEBODY!
I am unique. There never has been and never will be another person like me.
I don't have to pretend to be something that I am not.
I AM SOMEBODY!
Losers let it happen - winners make it happen.
Therefore, when faced with a mountain, I will not quit!!

I will keep on striving until I climb over, find a pass through,
tunnel underneath, or simply stay and turn the mountain into a gold mine!
I will do my best! I know I can!
I AM SOMEBODY!!!

Diary entry 05/31/16 7:40a

"Subconscious - In psychology, the subconscious is the part of consciousness that is not currently in focal awareness."

Something I've been thinking about lately, is subconscious good or just plain ol evil. For the past couple of years I have been desperately researching about "The Secret " to getting your hearts desires, but for me it feels like it has only set me back. My true hearts desire is to be happy and wealthy, my children happy and we'll off, stability, but as soon as I think I'm getting somewhere I get knocked back down. I'm consistently at Rock bottom but I work so hard. I'm thankful for all that I have. But I seek elevation. To be taken seriously.

Things I need to find out :

How to let go of baggage